He Beats Me but...

December 04, 2005

I'm Lost

I didn't manage to tell Frank that I was proud of him on Thursday. For my own nervous reasons I found it impossible to do. However I did manage to tell him that I had missed him while he was in bed and later that day he came and told me he was really pleased with all the effort I had been making.

Thursday night I plucked up the courage to confess about some photos he had of his ex girlfriend that were really bothering me. He was cool and fantastic about it.

Then on Friday morning he got up and started shouting. I put my arms around him and told him I didn't want to fight. We both agreed to just get on with things. Then Friday afternoon the kids first dad phoned asking if we could drop them off this weekend. That started him shouting again. I tried to keep simple by saying it was up to Frank, yes or no and that would be the end of it. He said we would take them.

When we got in the car he continued to shout at me the whole way there and the whole way back.

We calmed it down sort of when we got home then I went to bed.

Yesterday he beat crap out of me. He knocked me out and has bruised my head very very badly. I think one of my ribs may be fractured or broken and I can't breathe in very well at all. My head is still spinning in a big way and I feel constantly sick.

I tried to get him to phone my mum or anyone to help us sort this out but he wont.

Now I am back to sitting here while he is in bed wondering what on earth I should do. He says he wants to work it out. That he just needs some positivity from me but I'm lost. I haven't got a clue what I did so bad to make it escalate when I was generally trying to calm it down the whole time.

He is moaning at me for being panicked and scarred but I don't know how else to be when things like this keep happening.

I'm so confused.

I Still Love You xxx

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2 Comments:

OMG, I feel so bad for you. I can't even begin to comprehend what it must be like. Keep your chin up, and take the police's advice. If he does anything else, call 999, even if it is only to get yourself patched up. <3 I hope you work out what you want to do. xxx

By Pippa, at 7:36 AM

i just want 2 say that im praying for u - its not a situation i can fully comprehend i know that but u are now a part of my prayers. my prayers and words may not b of any comfort too u but may God b with u throughout this tough time

you are not alone through this

the police can help u

By Anonymous, at 11:26 PM